Second Fine

I walked in the living after work



There was a photo on the desk



A red car was took by the poice 



Yes, i was fined



This is my second fine so far



How much? I don't know



My mom paid that in the afternoon



My mom only mutter "I told you not to drive too fast. See, you got fine."



The limited speed on that road is 60 km per hour



60 km, and i really want to said """........""



I don't think those police officers will obey the law which they regulated



60 km per hour for a car driver seems "dragging"



Because I drove 75 km per hour



I got fine.......................



My brothers and I always can't understand why the roads in Taiwan always with 4 lanes



But limited speed usually regulated 60 km, only rare region set 70 km



I miss the the regulations in Germany ...........



Usually we drive 90 km on the 2 lanes ways



60 km compare 90 km



What a big difference

I am a really lucky girl

After eating dinner, I took some leftover to garbage can



My mom and uncle was standing outside and having a short talk



I murmured to my mom and complained I felt kind of tired



Then, I went straight to garbage can



On the way home, my uncle asked me why I decided to study abroad. 



I knew my mom had told him that I wanted to study oversea



In his opinion, I am almost 30 years old, and i should find a man to get married instead of studying abroad



I did not give any response to him ; I smiled and said learning is a good method to make my life completed 



While I was sitting in the kitchen and watching TV cartoon carelessly, my brother was slicing some fruit



I ask him suddenly, "Why girls can't attain higher education, why girls can't study in foreign countires?"



He smiled at me and said, "You don't need to worry that because Father will support you to persue your goal. "



Looking back my whole life, i have to say I am really lucky to be born in this family



Though we don't have too much money, but my parents always support their children's dreams with all their efforts



Maybe sometimes my mom muttered Father spending too much on us and do not think their retired life



I am lucky to have two brothers to back my dream now



Few years ago, my younger brother had a talk with me one day "you major in Translation, so i think you should keep persuing higer education degrees.  With a bachelor degree, I think that's not enough. "



Few weeks ago, I told him that I want to study abroad.



There is only one question he asked me , "What do you want to study when you are in the UK? Think about carefully? "



So far, in my family, nobody said you are girl so you can't persue higher degrees..... something about bababalala



But I know, my mom may disagree my plan........But she does not want to say it out



What can I do with her? Maybe, keep waiting...

How much i forgot?

Recently, i have been studying quite hard



But there is something really scared me



I forgot too many things i learned form professors who taught me before



It made me feel guilty and kind of sad



While I read the old CNN magazine, i found too many words i forgot



2002-2004 , I think i had reached the peak in learing English 



I can listen, read, speak, write easily (Now, i think i was too proud of myself. No good.)



After I graduated , i seldome read and find something good for me



I think i have learned enough for me to teach English because my focus is on kids English



Due to the thought, I found meself become lazy and I don't have too much passion on learning English 



Because the job I took was steady that I don't want to improve myself



This is really my weakness, and my shortness



From now on, I always do self-talk to me every morning



"You should do ALL-OUT effort to persue your future dream."



I set a goal to myself, IELTS, every part should reach 7 points



I really wish I could accomplish my goal

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Yesterday, i went back to university to take my documents 



It was early for me,so i decided to buy something for me to eat and drink



There is a cafe stand on the campus, I help myself order a hot -dog and a MilkTea without suger and ice



When i sat on the chair and open the magazine which i studied long time ago



There are sevearl words i had already memorzied before but now I totally forgot because those words I read and re-look into the dictionary again few days ago



Suddenly, I felt depressed 



How much I forgot?

 

學習計畫講座感想 （Thoughts of studying plan meeting）

申請前往英國唸書的人絕對跑不掉準備一些文件的機會



Apply for studying in the UK, people must prepare some documents



其中有幾樣是必備



Some of them are necessary



而我最頭大的就是--學習計畫



The big headache for me is "studying plan"



之前代辦中心很好心有給我一些資料



The staffs of UK center  are very kind to me, so they gave a lot of references



但是我只能純粹做參考，絕不能抄襲



I only can take a look on them , but defenitly can't copy



昨天早上，中心辦了一場講座，協助學生寫學習計畫



There was a meeting in the UK office which helped students write the studying plan yesterday moring



有了專人解說，果然很容易就抓到方向如何寫出自己的學習計畫



With their explaining of the study plan, soon i realized how to write my own study plan



不過，原本要講兩個小時的講座，因為有人遲到，延遲到10:30開始



Because some people were late for the meeting for amost half an hour, the two hours meeting began at 10:30 pm



也因為如此，我並沒有聽完所有的講座，最後，我是提早離開



Because of that, i have to leave there eariler without finishing the two hours meeting. 



心中有點難過



I felt sorry to the speaker



但是我還是很感謝他的解說，及其他工作人員的熱心



I still appreciated his great explaining and willings form the staff.

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關於昨天的講座，我對台灣學生有一點失望就是『準時』



About the meeting which held yesterday, i was very disappointed about the Taiwanese students' attitude of  "punctual"



既然是十點開始，就不要遲到，一方面會拖延到其他人，另一方面也導致英國講師對台灣學生的態度



The meeting began at ten in the morning, there was no reson for being late. On the other hand, it may leave bad impresson to the teachers



還有一點就是，台灣學生還是不善於表達自己



There is one problem among Taiwanese students, they still don't want to talk or ask questions in public



我自己的看法是，既然決定要出去唸書，最好能夠在各方面多多加強自己



In my opinion, i have decided to studying abroad , hence i will strenghten myself with all efforts i could do

回憶--水中之島(歐洲滿週年)

昨天是我們第二次前往歐洲的紀念日



Yesterday was the second  Europe trip anniversay



果然如我弟說的, 我可能沒辦法在九月20前寫完遊記



My brother had told me so, you may not finish the articles before September 20th , 2007



至今，我仍為寫完所有的遊記



So far, i haven't finished all the articles of journey in 2007



算很混吧！



Lately, i am quite lazy (i admitted about that)



有些美麗的回憶跟景點也只能留在我的腦海中



The sweet memory and great spots may leave on my mind and brain forever



卻無法以文字訴諸



Though i could not use word to describe what i want to say



難怪有些人曾經告訴我



No wonder somepeople had told me



你一定沒辦法全部寫完



you cannot write them out 



因為時間，加上我的懶人性格



because of time and my lazy personality 



不管如何，我還是盡量盡量寫出我想表達



No matter what, i will do my best to express what i saw and felt in europe

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當地人推薦我們若是可以的話，可以前來看這可愛的小鎮



Locals recommended us to come here and take a look of lovely town



這個地方，張國立的遊記曾出現過，兩三行文字吧！



The lovely  town had been described into three sentences in the book which is written by Mr. Chang



鎮小小，人不多，沒有太多了美麗景點



The size of the town isn't big, population is not too many and it does not contain too many attractive spots



但是這裡真的是很安靜，整個小鎮是有這條河流繞上一圈



The whole quiet town is surrounded the stream



沿著小河流繞行城鎮，不時可以看到鴨子嬉戲其中



Walking along the stream, people can see ducks enjoy their time as well







我可憐的老弟趴在地上，試圖幫他糊塗老姐檢起掉落和中的太陽眼鏡



My poor younger brother tried to pick the sunglasses from the stream because his absent-mind sister lost it 



<第一次嘗試以一行中文，一行英文寫，若有修飾的錯誤，告訴我一下！！>

（It's my first time to write an article like this. If there is any mistakes, feel free let me know.）

studying , reading

最近的生活很充實也很忙



自己下了一個決定



或許這決定也會影響我日後的生活



影響層面大或小, 我自己拿不定主意



但是我總覺得那是我一生想要追求的夢



之前很羨慕老哥可以在美國求學一年



享受那種生活，或許對他納時候來說也有點孤單



所以幾個禮拜前, 我想了很久



跟老爸稍稍談過



他也是同意我的決定



但是他有一個前提



他希望這是我自己真的是思考過後的決定



所以上禮拜開始準備一些國外求學的東西



既然決定要去唸書



當然留學考試便跑不掉



所以最近有空的時候



手上拿的是英文書籍, 英文新聞, 英文文章



我喜歡的言情小說, 變成我生活很可有可無的東西了



通常都是念書累了



拿起稍稍翻閱了一下解一下唸書的苦悶



最近常伴我身旁的書籍是



劉毅的5000字（預計九月底之前唸完，之後挑戰10000）



及NYT的新聞（從網路下載列印出）



空中美語（一方面自己念,一方面是三六透過MSN教授同事） 



IETES的相關書籍



排排站好我的書桌前, 有種無形壓力逼自己唸書



現在唸書的心情比在當時念翻譯系更加用功

基礎，我要打基礎（revised）

不知道有多少人教過英文（目前我知道我的網友就CELESTE及NINA的老公超大翻譯機）



當英文老師最討厭就是碰上插班生跟接別人的班級



插班生有時候程度很好，有的明明就學過兩年以上



結果，程度卻不如學一年的情況



接別人的後母班就是，之前的老師若是很任真的是老師



接到這種班級，算自己好命



要是接到很混，很混的老師



那一切都是命啊！



昨天算是我接別人班級的第六堂課



發現，這些號稱已經學3個月的小朋友（有的更久，有人超過1 年）



英文字母26有五個母音，全部講不出來



老師『心中無限哀傷』



我問他們『Good morning.』, 結果回答的是『I am fine, thank you.』不然就是『How are you?』之類



我的心猶如插到好幾把刀



當下，我決定還是從頭複習



A＿Z從頭教，順便從What is that? What's this? 複習中ING

秋意

早晚溫差越來越大



以前穿長袖，是為了怕曬黑



現在穿長袖，是為了怕感冒



有時候一起床，皮膚就可以看到一粒粒的小雞皮



秋天真的是來了

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早上跑了三圈操場，走了七圈操場



帶了半濕的身體慢慢走回家



路旁的小葉欖仁已經落下不少轉黃的樹葉



踩在落葉上頭



樹葉碎裂的聲音



我想，這種感受秋天的感覺



很不賴

無聊到想尖叫

下午三點十分



很無聊，非常無聊



不想看英文



床上的小說也翻到爛



二樓很安靜



樓下更安靜



外面也是很安靜



一切都很安靜



這安靜的氣氛，讓我覺得很不舒服



所以抓著七分長褲



衝到老哥的房間



一開門，老哥睡眼惺忪看著我



問我：你拿什麼？（他看不清我的褲子）



我回：長褲。接著說：我很無聊，非常無聊



他說：那你要做什麼？（他翻身繼續睡）



我說：我想去花錢，我想去萊爾富



他說：然後呢？



我說：你有沒有想要什麼？（爬到他床上，鬧他，戳他，要他陪我講話，不讓他睡）



他說：沒啊！（不受我的吵鬧，繼續睡）



然後，我帶著一顆想要衝出去的心，走路去便利商店



在裡頭翻閱一本書，佔了半小時



省掉200多的錢（不想花錢買書）



最後，我買了一瓶飲冰室的紅茶奶霜跟一塊麵包



花了四十分鐘在便利商店



心情那種悶，好想像到一點點的抒發



回到家，跟老媽分享著我買回來的東西



東西不太好吃，不過，心情好像有好一點

預約人生第一座百岳

終於跟阿姨報名，人生第一座百岳



只是何時能夠成行？還得等待抽籤的結果



之前一直很想爬玉山



無奈班通通卡死，目前可以挪出時間來



昨天阿姨終於打電話來跟我要基本資料



為了這個計畫，我已經每天早上五點半去練習健走



希望自己登高時



不會過渡『軟腳』，慘遭恥笑



畢竟，家中的大哥，小弟早已爬過玉山（去年完成）



上各禮拜兩人也已經完成四天三夜的大雪山之旅



而我仍在原地練習，何時？我才能成行？

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下面這個鏈結：



大雪山之行（各位欣賞我老弟拍照技術吧）！



其中有幾張，他表示跟德國的黑森林有點雷同



我看完之後，覺得風情不同，雖是針葉林



但不同的環境涵養出的林景就是不一樣







這是德國森林景象

Resign

昨天深處『風暴』中



臨時跟老爸說，要不要去永康找楊伯伯聊聊



這一聊，不得了



因為我跑去打工



被一群『愛護有佳』的長輩門熱切關愛



這些長輩包括了



我國中英文老師（啟蒙老師）Lisa



Lisa的老爸跟老媽==楊伯伯＆楊媽媽



老爸跟老媽一看有人反對我去打工，正中他們最近不滿情緒，因此有了宣洩的出口



五個人一直坐在客廳『殷切』的反對



理由是：



一沒前途（我去這裡，也不是因為錢的關係）



二是危險（因為我騎機車，要1小時以上），可是我總是很想說：就算你是開車，也難保不會一個鐵片飛過來



三是：不符合經濟效益，因為跟當英文補教的鐘點費，差了四倍之多



balabala一堆



Lisa的妹妹，在一旁用著『我理解』的眼神看著我（目前她本人在英國念碩士，回來放暑假）



因為之前她之前想要轉行去美容，也慘遭全家『殷切』關愛



後來辭去她在成大的護理工作（以目前來看叫做：高薪好福利的工作，每月至少5萬以上，而且又是在國立醫院上班），更是被『殷切』愛護，至今，我想楊伯楊媽還是在不滿中



所以昨天坐在楊伯伯家的客廳的沙發一角落



看著恩師，恩師的爸媽殷切吩咐，不要去了！



與其浪費時間在那裡打工，不如去好好專心準備進修英文



看是要在國內念碩士，還是跟LISA的妹妹一樣，去英國進修碩士



我從頭到尾不吭一聲，心理當然是很『不悅』



長輩都是好意，這點我很清楚



但是，我真的是很不喜歡他們的論點



找工作一定要找『名聲不錯』，『工作穩定』，『福利也還不錯』bababa的一堆



可是我有時候常想：



教語言這份工作，我不討厭，但是不是我的興趣所在



因為不是那麼的喜歡，做起來總覺得少了點熱忱



我知道，我很喜歡餐飲業，無奈



在長輩眼中，是份『沒出息』的工作

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晚上十點半回到家，只好拿起電話



很不好意思的跟值班經理說聲抱歉



也很清楚的跟她說：家中的狀況，所以三天的訓練真的是浪費掉了



沒拿到薪水，也就算了！



可是，我想我會有一陣子不快樂



因為，我真的是很不喜歡長輩們老是用他們的眼光看我們這一代的工作



我懂，他們是愛護我們，不捨我們吃太多苦，走太多冤枉路



但是這樣，我想，當他們老在念我們這一輩不會吃苦，也吃不了苦



有沒有換各角度想想，他們有多少人讓我們感受過以前像他們走過路的苦？



一昧的愛護，我想，這也是我的壓力

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我是家中唯一的女兒



一直以來，老是被愛護得很好



雖然，個性算是很獨立



但是，每每扯到工作



我心頭上的壓力就來了



前一陣子找工作也是如此



要離開台南，家中馬上就有人跳出來持反對票



馬上列舉一堆去異地工做的缺點