How much i forgot?

Recently, i have been studying quite hard



But there is something really scared me



I forgot too many things i learned form professors who taught me before



It made me feel guilty and kind of sad



While I read the old CNN magazine, i found too many words i forgot



2002-2004 , I think i had reached the peak in learing English 



I can listen, read, speak, write easily (Now, i think i was too proud of myself. No good.)



After I graduated , i seldome read and find something good for me



I think i have learned enough for me to teach English because my focus is on kids English



Due to the thought, I found meself become lazy and I don't have too much passion on learning English 



Because the job I took was steady that I don't want to improve myself



This is really my weakness, and my shortness



From now on, I always do self-talk to me every morning



"You should do ALL-OUT effort to persue your future dream."



I set a goal to myself, IELTS, every part should reach 7 points



I really wish I could accomplish my goal

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Yesterday, i went back to university to take my documents 



It was early for me,so i decided to buy something for me to eat and drink



There is a cafe stand on the campus, I help myself order a hot -dog and a MilkTea without suger and ice



When i sat on the chair and open the magazine which i studied long time ago



There are sevearl words i had already memorzied before but now I totally forgot because those words I read and re-look into the dictionary again few days ago



Suddenly, I felt depressed 



How much I forgot?